Since Friday morning life for me has been altered. I have been trying not to cancel events on the calendar.
We had dinner on Friday night as usual, with family, I played guitar with Mihael before we left.I met with our writing project tech team yesterday morning. Tuvia and I saw the Israeli film, Footnotes with friends in the evening and it was pleasant.
Everyone knew about my loss and approached me gently.
But I don’t feel the same. I guess I wonder, what’s next? When will I feel Eileen’s absence. I hear her voice in my head, letting me know just last Thursday, that the cancer had spread everywhere and one week later…just one week she was gone.
Is it crazy, but somehow I’d like a photo of something from today. Is that crazy? At the cemetery. I’m not taking my big camera, but I do have my iPhone.
Anyway, I wanted to put something down tho morning but I think the richer slice will be coming tonight when I can digest the reality.
Thanks everyone for sharing poems and feelings with me.